the idiot

It was going to be a long creative week. Instead, it's been a week of fixing one thing and getting another thing not working. Either the midi would not communicate, or the IBVA would crash, pro-tools would crash, the computer would crash. A chain of reactions. Steadily, and with patience, much patience, I addressed each issue presented. I experimented with different approaches in composing the music for the piece. Ideally each instrument would follow the melody/harmony of the speech from the interviews. Although this was manageable, it did not sound right. The pieces did not really fit. Other attempts using noise, experimental pianos, classical approaches were again futile. Not only that, but eventually when something did sound right, pro-tools would always crash on bounces. So I decided to bounce 20 min long parts of the piece seperately, to allow more sounds to be incorporated (and hopefully less crashes). This seemed to do the trick. It gave me chance to do some filming with the fish tank and ink. The bounces finished right at the point where my camera's card was full, so I begun transferring the footage on the computer. Meanwhile I was looking at art theory terms on the internet.
Then firefox crashes. Force quit only closed the window, but the icon in the dock was still selected. Then final cut is non responsive. I press and hold the magic button for a force shut down. Turn it on again. Magically, or through some divine intervention, Acrobat pops up and presents me with an ebook titled "Music composition for dummies".
This does not convince me completely that there is someone up there taking the piss out of me. It is confirmed though that the greek dramaturge would be quite envious of my tragic irony: when my computer gained consciousness to mock me (and all the in-between).